I remember
as I ran my hands through your hair,
I stroked your cheek with my hand
You embraced my touch with your lips
and swallowed me whole with your eyes.
I broke the walls of my cup of intimacy with you
and my love became infinite
with a blood-stained dagger etched in the centre.
I remember your warm body,
still
and calmly beating to the rhythm of your love for me.
I ran my gaze over your silhouette
and felt honoured
and special
and guilty
all at the same time.
I wanted so desperately to love you
like you loved me
but the tears came rolling down my face instead.
And I curled up in myself
into a tight bundle
where nothing would surely move.
