I remember
as I ran my hands through your hair,
I stroked your cheek with my hand

You embraced my touch with your lips
and swallowed me whole with your eyes.

I broke the walls of my cup of intimacy with you
and my love became infinite
with a blood-stained dagger etched in the centre.

I remember your warm body,
and calmly beating to the rhythm of your love for me.

I ran my gaze over your silhouette
and felt honoured
and special
and guilty
all at the same time.

I wanted so desperately to love you
like you loved me

but the tears came rolling down my face instead.

And I curled up in myself
into a tight bundle
where nothing would surely move.