I miss you dearly.
The house is so full of everything these days that I barely have any space for my own thoughts.
Constantly talking people, pets trying to swindle a second breakfast out of me, sunlight flooding in through every window day and night, heat that reaches into your mind and strangles your patience, whirring fans trying vainly to drive the fire demons away…
I miss you like I miss a whole day of cooling rain.
I feel like the lack of solitude as heat packing in around my spine, and if I could just get one quiet afternoon with no one else around, I could release that pressure.
One silent hour in which my thoughts could finally float free of my head again.
One cool moment when I don’t feel like crawling into the fridge and bunking down next to the half empty jar of chimichurri.
One foggy morning in which the whole world would be wrapped in moist cotton candy.
One crisp day when I’d rejoice walking the streets because they’re finally empty of all the tourists and out-of-towners.
One chill week during which I could finally feel the comforting hug of my favourite double alpaca wool sweater again.
I long for the days when my thoughts will be the only thing moving in the house again.
For now, I constantly refill the ice trays, drink water until I feel I’ll pop, and take deep breaths when my daughter interrupts my shower for the fifth time to tell me something important — like onions dying in the kitchen, the dishwasher being half-full in case I need dirty dishes, or just to ask for a glass of water with her father sitting on the couch watching TV, half a world closer to the kitchen than me.
The constant interrupting drives me crazy, but the dramatic poses and elaborate hand gestures my daughter requires to transmit this vital information make it worth while to tune in.
I don’t know if there will be a summer vacation for the next 10 years after which I won’t need a vacation from the vacation, so I’ll just go stand in front of the fan with my shirt up to my armpits for a bit.
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